Third week of As! Almost.

It's a little scary, to think that we've made it this far with 3, or less, papers left. I don't know about you but this whole Alevels thing, still a little surreal to me. I know right, gee Amelina ketinggalan zaman.

But seriously. It's like since rg life started, we've just been going to school and back, there wasn't really an aim seeing how there was no Olevels for us, EOYs do not qualify thank you. Then rj came and after studying for 2 years, or maybe like 1 year rather heh, 'A's!! And now it's here and almost gone (!), so what happens next?

This uncertainity thang, it's quite exciting. I really have a million things I wanna do when I get my life back. But then at the same time it's like, !!! (cue: scary music)

It's like when people ask me what I wanna be in the future, I'd say I wanna be a good person haha. But I do, wanna be a good person, more than anything else. I think it's the most realistic ambition, not that I'm being pessimistic. Of course there are lots of highly ambitious things I wanna do. I just hate how it's often constrained by your grades. Paper chase, people.

Grades, grades.. Despite how they have been waay less than ideal for me, I don't regret life in RJ cus it's been the bombz. I think i'm settling into a state of Pasrah. Whatever happens, it's good for me and will take me on to becoming that better person! Empowerment at its best, woo!

I'm ready for the rest of As, Insyaallah. Bring it on Cambridge!!

Oh ya by the way, freaking stop screwing with us Cambridge!! It's a little amazing how there was no Macro policy question at all in either Econs paper. And stop it with the bizarro questions THEY ARE NOT CUTE AT ALL ): ):

♥9:45 PM

3 papers left but I feel so celebratory now hahaha yay yet another weekend! :)

I was procrastinating doing 06 Chem Paper 1, started looking through my harddrive instead. There's like a million pictures I wanna post, but I want to sleep..

This picture makes me smile like maaaaad hahah


And wow check this out!


I was reading juniors' blogs about how they miss rg cus they're graduating/graduated and all that jazz that comes along with leaving rg. I miss rg too, and I'm gonna miss rj and everything that's a subset of it. Oh god I'm just going to miss school and the concept of schooling as a whole, like with uniforms and school songs/ college anthems ha ha ha

Wow Amelina, geek?

(Speaking of school stuff, omg I lost my school badge, the one I've had since orientation omg omg I hate losing stuff and I have emotional attachments to my stuff, like erasers and school badges I'm so sad. I bought a new school badge, for keep's sake, and it was like $1.70 WTH WHY SO EXPENSIVE shouldn't it be like, 40 cents.. I'm so sad, that badge had sentimental value!!)

K dah end of silly rant.

Tomorrow, I will be productive!

♥11:22 PM

Exactly half way through ALevels!
6 papers to go :)

ALevels have been kind to me so far, Alhamdullilah. Despite the strange questions in Math and random shizz Ka values for chem, everything's been quite bearable and to some extent, fun. Heh. Insyaallah the rest will be fun too hehe.

Dear God please give me strength.

♥10:16 PM

Hwow Alevels in 2 days!

In that light, Happy Birthday Fawaz!! Hehehehe.

Honestly one of the strangest people I've ever known, but the cool kind of strange. Although you're always saying that I'm more alien than you are (I am appalled at your judgement, Fawaz), you're really quite cool. It's awesome that you have a mind of your own, and a bizzaro sense of humour that I can occasionally comprehend. Coupled with all the random and frivolous things you like to randomly spurt out, like in the middle of a relatively serious Physics tutorial. I mean with all that, how can I be more alien than you? You win hands down, woohoo! Respek!

And stop pretending and acting cool, I know you love the B-) smiley. Ahahaha always step ah Fawaz. Btw I know you love the Kris Allen 1:44 video too hahaha remember that remember that!!

Oh and thanks to you, my sister, my mum and occasionally my dad, have been going around the house saying ARAKNOW. Congrats sia kau influential.

And ok let's debate the sms after As hahaha takde kerja ttm by then.

Ah okay I'm so bored of reading the most random articles for GP.. Nak tidur ah bye!

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♥9:36 PM

Let's pretend today's the 30th.


Heh I wanted to post the other photo Rach, but figured it might be a bit inappropriate heh.

Happy Birthday Rachel! Thanks for being the best captain everrrrrrr. And always having to tolerate my nonsense and troubled life. I'm so glad you came to RJ :) By the way did you not receive my sms! Why didn't you reply, it was such a heart-felt message hahaha. Love you anyhow Rach ♥ ♥

Oh and happy birthday Caleb too! I doubt he'll ever find this, but thanks for being the best new coach we had :) You're the bombz have fun in army hehehe.

Labels: Birthdays, Touch Rugby

♥4:45 PM

Hello world hope you're listening, forgive me if I'm young, for speaking out of turn (CUE SADIKIN HAHA)

Wowzz. 18 days to Alevels.. This is so surreal.
Heh ok sorry for the frank reminder, it's about time to face reality anyway yes?

Anyhoos, wow I haven't blogged in ages. My computer is currently non-existant, the motherboard(??) crashed or something? I don't know, I don't really speak much g33k. Unlike Haliim. But anyway, I need to know why it's called motherboard, or is it even called motherboard? Sounds like motarboard, which is damn fun to wear btw!!

I really have a million things to blog about, which I'm gonna! After As! Heh! A million pictures from a million different things that have happened. Life is tiring now, studying is draining and as much as I can't wait for it all to be over, I really need to figure out how to get my As, especially for like mm, Physics ha ha. And maybe Econs. OKAY AH EVERYTHING. I feel quite pumped for Math though, cus I loveeeeeeeeeeeeeee math. But okay, besides the point..

I just spent the whole night on the internet. Which is really feeding my guilt because there is such a high opportunity cost for doing anything that isn't mugging-ish. Sucks ah. Life damn tough.

Is it obvious that I don't really have anything substantial to blog about?

I think I'm really gonna miss school, rj, lectures, B42(!), RI field(!) and everything that is a subset of school.

Anyway I really need to see another picture on my blog, instead of the cool-ish RI poster, so here..


Okay sleep! Turrah! :)

♥10:47 PM

RI (secondary, haha) finally started a "keep your plates" campaign thingy, finally!! I don't know what took them so long really. (Some) RI boys are really disgusting sometimes and it's so annoying that they don't put their plates back after they eat or say arrogant, obnoxious things like "That's what the cleaners are for what!!"

Like gee people. It was such a cultural shock coming to RJ and seeing how most of my friends previously from RI didn't put their plates back!! (Except Sadikin, cus he's such a murid contoh hahahaha proud of you) But they do now, kinda, sorta, most of them.. Bravo.

So anyway I saw this at RI on Friday and it's like the best poster ever haha, considering the average RI posters that are mm.. rather strange. Like all the funny RIPB posters that are so hilariously silly.

Ok, drawing fail, but not like I can draw any better.

But I like it!! And it's true ah, who likes a boy who's disgusting anyway..

Goodjob RI, for producing one poster that's actually nice(-ish)! (:

♥11:31 PM

This is gonna sound pretty bad, but I really haven't seen these people in a million years!!


Where have you been hiding my friends!! ): Rindu ah.

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♥9:11 PM

This is a silly rant, please don't read it if you have something better to do with your life, like eat Milo powder. (Loves it?!)

After 2 months of excessive passivity, I finally decided to expose my body to some form of physical stress, my retarded knee in particular.

DAMN. PAIN. TTM!!
It's not even funny I swear. It's so painful to run or do anything that has like a skippy/bouncing motion. It must have looked quite funny when I ran, my right leg didn't feel like it was mine, it felt a bit unstable.

Damnit why was I so lazy.

It's really quite bad. I wasn't very tired from the run, it was mostly just piercing pain, I had to stop after 15 minutes. This sucksssssssssss.

SIGH I AM A SLOB D:

(yeah the title of this post is a "Part 1" cus I am anticipating myself to come to yet another 'revolutionary' realisation about something really duhh about my current physical state of inactivity.. like how fat I am or how I've lost much of my muscles.. Ah see, k I'll save that for part 2 and 3.)

Oh ya and everyone's been telling me how fair I've become. Stop it siaaaaaa you think I'm not sad that I've lost my tan?!?! ):

This is so upsetting. I'm going to do Math, it's so much more mesra than this.

♥8:30 PM

Wow. I've never felt so unliberated after an exam. 2 weeks of exam, to be specific.

Ok maybe I have, but there is this daunting feeling inside, just knowing that I am far from being in a legitimate and morally acceptable celebratory mode, because clearly, it's just starting all over again. But then again, I'm looking forward to it starting all over again. Kinda. So there, I am one confused soul.

In other news, post-prelims was pretty fun yesterday. The Ugly Truth with best girlfriends and team dinner after. Bummed into my class boys along the way, they are such funny boys really haha. Hate it that RJ is endingggg ):


Marina was so so so noisy cus of F1 and stuff. There were lots of people with really huge ass cameras! Ok irrelevance..

We got Ms Chan belated teachers' day gifts, Topshop undies heh! She says she's never gotten undies from students before hahaha, there's always a first right.


Speaking of Caleb, today he thought me a life lesson haha: Never wear the same top out 2 days in a row.

I woke up mega late for tuition, and didn't have time to scour through my cupboard to find something else to wear, so I just grabbed the blue top I wore yesterday. Then after tuition while I was waiting for the bus, Caleb messaged me saying "Someone at Coronation? Wearing the same thing as last night?"

HAHAHAHA OOOPS! He was on one of the passing buses. (STALKER!)

Aye but isn't it perfectly normal to recycle your tops! Especially if you are a poor kid like me haha. It's not like I ran a marathon in it or anything, and I like to think that I'm very harum heh! But okay, I won't do it again. You really won't know who you might meet right..

Okay, life lesson over! I really need to clean my room now. Sigh.

♥2:04 PM

I already have post-prelims plans, despite how prelims are so not over yet. More power to me!

Actually I kinda think paper 1's the most annoying. It seems like its easy cus its mcqs, but its 1.5 minutes per question and that is tmth sometimes especially when you have to calculate stupid concentrations and moles and Ka/b/c/sp. And so much work for 1 mark only walao.

Okay but I'm glad it's finally ending and the hardcore mugging is restarting proper 8-) Chem & Physics Paper 1 left for the next 2 days. Exams are really really tiring draining exhausting and all other related synonyms. Sucks out all the fun and joy and amusement out of our already sad little lives.. My sad life, at least.

I'm really super jealous that all the arts/humanz people have ended!! Today!! JELES ):

But well, people like Rach have written something like 16 essays over the past week and a half? Mmhm that sucks.. She says us Science students secretly prefer our situation, heh. Okay I must admit she isn't completely wrong.. At the end of the first of my 3 Econs essays that I wrote last week, I already felt like dying. And I was damn hungry also, so ya, sucks?

Ok clearly this is all rambles and I don't really know what I'm doing here when I should be sleeping or doing more MCQs.. Oh ya btw I'm so proud of myself, I finished a Paper 1 with 5 minutes to spare woohoo! K ah but I left like a million blanks..

Liting & I developed a policy for exams: DON'T KNOW, SKIP. It works eh tak bedek, try it! Just keep skipping and do everything that looks remotely familiar to you, then pray and hope you have extra time to go back and tikam everything else that you were utterly clueless about. It might actually come back to you!! (or not) Hee.

Oh and what's up with all the Singapore Idol contestants practically mimicking performances. Like Kris Allen's Heartless and Gaga's Acoustic Poker Face. Srzly, originality sikit please. Only Nurul had like a tinge of originality. And I really cannot stand how 17 year old Fathin has transformed into mak orang. MAK ORANG!! Tmthttm.

But I think she looks a bit like Mary, what do you think! K ah but Mary cuter. Hahahah.

Time for glorious sleep, turrah! (:

♥11:49 PM

Oh ya btw, I can still balance in heels! Baik ah retarded knee.

♥5:50 PM

(Wow blogger's normal again!)

First I'd like to share with the cyberworld how pleased I am that Prelims is half over, actually slightly more than half, woo! Math Chem Chem Physics then I'm freeeeeeeeeeeeeee, for a few days.

I'm quite excited for Stats cus I ♥ stats, on the assumption that my brain doesn't fail on me again.

Raya's tomorrow but I srzly have no mood to do anything remotely festive. Except solat and our annual Hari Raya breakfast at somewhere unhealthy like Macs or Swensens.

I think raya's gonna be pretty sad, with having to study and how my extended family is in ultimate crisis mode, with my uncle fighting stage 4 stomach cancer.. It's really really sad and I reckon this is gonna be the most sombre raya yet. Sigh.

Anyways, on a slightly happier note, I managed to put aside all my econs thingies this morning! The amount of Econs I have is overwhelming.


Can't wait for prelims to be over so I can start studying all over again!! Hahaha yea I'm kinda psychopathic like that.

Isn't it annoying to be misunderstood? But isok, cus you can do whatever you like (cue: T.I.) and I shall channel my braincells into something productive and berbaloi. Haha what a funny Malay word. K lah I really malas nak layan already anyway!!~~

Okayz time to sleep, I think we're going to the mosque at like 5am++, Turrah! (:

(oh ya btw, I just realised I have no raya shoes or clutch or anything!! And I just found out that my baju kurung is brown, even though my mum made it like 10 months ago. 10 months is probably not even an exaggeration, srzly. How ah!! And I don't know if I balance in heels anymore haha)

♥11:53 PM